More About Marshall.

I logged on a month ago to give an update, wrote like 5 pages and saved it to drafts. Then dummy me spent the next month trying to figure out how to get to my drafts... Lol. I finally figured it out but decided against posting it since most of the stuff written is irrelevant now.
I hate that it's been so long since I've blogged. This is a huge stress reliever and I miss it! And trust me, the stress is on right now. Not terribly, but enough to get under my skin I guess :/ So here's what you've missed.
I started at Marshall at the end of August and have completely fallen in love with it. Everything about Marshall is amazing. The people, the area, the cityness, my dorm and roommate, even the professors. I love how big it is and how virtually no one from my high school goes here (like three people-but I only talk to one of them.) The classes are challenging but I feel that they are preparing me! I even met someone special, but that's a different story ;) I could go on and on about how much I love my life at Marshall. But then, I got a bomb dropped on me.
Apparently now we can't afford Marshall, and I have to move. Isn't that just wonderful.
In the spring I am moving to Shawnee State University and leaving everything at Marshall behind, including my friends, BESTFRIEND/BOYFRIEND, and most of my credits x_x. The only credit that transfers is my Psychology, which means I will have to re-take Math, Chemistry and Anatomy. And I took random useless classes like UNI 100 and this new one I just started which is totally dumb. Goshhhhh. Also, most of my high school class goes to Shawnee. This sounds nice but I went to Marshall so it wouldn't feel like high school anymore! I don't want to know people in my classes, I want to make new friends and start over. I've loved the feeling here at Marshall but I guess its back to the old stuff meow :/
So the credit issue sucks but its not even my biggest concern about transferring. Shawnee is around 40 mins from my grandma's house (where I would stay,) and this is going to sound dumb and minuscule but I very much dislike driving! I've looked at living on campus but it is too expensive, I even looked into sharing an apartment with a friend or even moving in with another friend, but nothing worked out. Now my only option is to either drive the whole distance every day or get an apartment on my own with my refund (extra loans) :/ I hope something decent and inexpensive comes up. That's my only hope of not ripping my hair out from the stress of driving every day :( [Side note: I am an extremely timid driver and cannot stand traffic. This is why I stress. Lol.]
Well, wish me luck in my hunt for an apartment, and pray that my soon-to-be long distance relationships last with my boyfriend and friends. I'm about to write a new non-rant post so I'll be back in 2.2!

Oh Yeah!
Listening to: How to Love - Lil Wayne
Before blogging I was: Napping. Boring, I know. Lol

First day!

Ok it's not the first day but I will talk about it. I moved into Marshall last Wednesday and it's prettyy amazing. I started classes on Monday. I was super nervous at first and sat by random people the first two days. I was nervous not only because my classes are ridiculously hard but I hadn't made any friends! Acquaintances maybe, but no one I would seek out and sit with the next day. This changed yesterday! I made a friend, Ashley, and met her friends. They are all really nice and not weird. Lol now I have someone to walk to class with, eat lunch with and even work out with! Super happy. And a plus is she's a nursing major too so we can study and we have a lot of the same classes. Gah. I've prayed about this for weeks, that I wouldn't be a loner.. Online on reviews about Marshall it says people um, kind of group with their friends from high school and it's hard to get a group of friends. I was nervous but now I'm super happy with college! Minus the hard class part but whatever.

On another note, on posts I will now start posting what I'm listening to and what I'm doing at the time.
Listening to: Ghosts n Stuff by Deadmau5.
Before blogging I was: Studying Anatomy and working on my Anatomy lab workbook.

Murshal

First day of actual class like things was a success for the most part. I was only alone for a little bit until I met some people and then found some people I knew. Monday the real fun starts.. I'll post more tomorrow maybe? Idkk.

Friends without Benefits..

So much has happened in the past couple of weeks. I didn't write because a lot of it is about stuff I just cannot talk about on here. Some stuff is good, but a lot of it is just sucky. Lol. Umm, I'll start with my friends.. two of my best friends started dating which made it very awkward for me. I've been trying to keep them both as friends but it became apparent that I could really only be friends with one. Or one at a time lol. Things get very complicated when it comes to us.. I'll just leave it at that. Another thing that has made my life complicated is Marshall University. I got a statement saying I didn't owe anything to them because of my scholarships and grants and loans. I called Marshall to see how much I would be getting back as a refund with my loans and well...let's just say it's a good thing I called. I owed over a thousand dollars, and it had to be paid by the due date three days later. MAJOR FREAK OUT on my end. I cried a lot..it was bad! I thought I wouldn't be able to go to college. A thousand dollars in my family is like..well a lot of money. I wish it wasn't like that but it is. The good news is that my super awesome grandmother is helping me get there and giving me money to live off of!! I am soo grateful. The good lord is taking care of me! Lol :)))) Eh, I'll be back to write in a few days, probably on move in day, Wednesday.

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Screw guys. I never want to see another male ever...Not a single one.

I am so fed up with the way I've been treated lately. I truly deserve better, I know it.

Becoming a Nun -.-

Colorguard!!!!!

YIPPEEE!
That was dumb. I'm sorry. Lol. But I am super excited. I just got hired by the GHS band to work with the color guard for this marching band season! It's like, a dream. I love colorguard..I've been obsessed with everything colorguard for the last three years. It is a HUGE part of my life. I may not be that great at it compared to drum corps but I have the heart and I think that's all that matters :) My official job is to be their instructor: to teach them flag and rifle and to learn the choreography and teach them that too. I also make sure they are on task and get the most out of their day. I wasn't told all of this but that's about the gist of it. I get to pick out the flags and work with the uniforms and prettymuch control all things colorguard (very scary thought). Ah, but this also means that the success of the colorguard rests on my shoulders. If we don't look good it will be on me. If the flag colors don't match the music it will be on me. If the uniforms aren't perfect..well, just about everyone is helping with them so it won't all be on me. Lol. If we don't do good at competitions, which is my biggest fear, it will be MY fault for not working hard enough and not being good at being an instructor! This is a huge responsibility that I CAN'T slack off with. Not that I like, ever slack off when it comes to colorguard, but still.
In the back of my mind, I can't help but think that I have other things to teach too. Here are my thoughts..if I work really hard and put my all into this (with learning and creating the work) and make sure we are always working hard and being productive and we succeed (which I was planning on, I just want to rant about it,) it will do a lot for these girls. Like, hopefully it will show them that if you have the drive to do it and you work hard you can succeed at anything. That is an amazing feeling that I was lucky enough to experience throughout my high school band years! But if we talk and goof off, which they wouldn't do even if I wanted to haha (last year we worked our butts off and I think it gave them this drive to work hard,) I feel like it will be instilling bad habits and values into them. I am being watched. Lol. So, it is a huge responsibility that I hope I won't regret taking!!

Some of the girls learning rifle

Ben and Bugs.

Shoes: Check!
Khaki Pants: Check!
Shake Shoppe Shirt: Check!
Red Blistering Hives All Over Body: Wait...what? CHECK!

This is insane. Ok, last night my father came into town (technically CDP or Census Designated Place, as our "town" is 2.4 square miles..lol) to drop off my brother who had been living with him for the summer. We went hiking in the woods to spend some quality country time together and we all came back with bites all over our bodies! Dad said they were chiggers since there weren't many mosquitoes, and that's just gross. I have them all over my neck, three on my face (which aren't noticeable thank heavens,) and some on my hands, arms and legs. How they got to my neck I'll never know, but it's bad!!
The worst part about it? I have to go to work in 45 minutes!! I look like I have some kind of disease! I went in to work earlier to ask what I should do and they said to come in anyway, but I'm a little worried about what people will think. I mean, when people come to order food, they don't want to be waited on by someone with band-aids and what look like sores all over them.. At least I wouldn't lol! Oh well.. there's nothing I can do. I need to work as much as they need me to work. =/

So, that's part of what's on my mind. The other part is my bubby. My [not so "baby"] bruver. I am so super glad he is home, as I've told him 5 bazillion times lol. You never realize how much you miss them until they've left for a month! I know people say that a lot. But it's so totally true, even for siblings. And especially for my brother, as he's one of my best friends! Aaand, I need to go put band-aids on before my friend picks me up for work so I'll write more tonight.

Ok back. Anyway. My brother really is one of my best friends. We understand each other in a really cool way, and it makes for some awesomely deep conversations and a lot of shared interests! A little about Ben.. He's 15, super intelligent, very mature for his age, and has a great sense of humor. He plays the saxophone in band and although he thinks he's no good at it, he is truly very musically inclined, even if not on an instrument. He has an ear for music and could probably compose music just like he draws and writes stories, which is pretty cool and something I envy. One thing that I think is so awesome that I HAVE to tell you about is Ben's computer abilities. Ben, is a computer GENIUS in my eyes. No normal 15 year old can do the stuff he does on a computer. Ok, some can apparently but very few and none I've ever met. He spends countless hours in front of the thing (like right now) writing in weird like computery language to do just about anything- including modding and making video games. He has been working on a game based off of the game Terraria, where you have a randomly generated world and tools to work with and you have to survive monsters and stuff. It's pretty cool but he doesn't have it finished. I'll post a pictures when I can. When you make a game, you have to start from the beginning--gravity and how it looks and how fast things go and how the arms move on a character and how the lighting works and absolutely everything has to be thought out and the computer has to be taught how to do it. Idk, it confuses me a lot. He also mods games like Minecraft which is pretty cool. Modding, or Modifying, is just messing with the inner workings of the game to change the game to your likings..in case you didn't know :) He also knows a lot about the insides of computers, enough that we trusted him to rip our family computer open to add a new graphics card. Which doesn't sound hard but it looked really crazy in there! He knows a lot about operating systems and can do a lot to computers to make them faster, and I bet he could go into computer repair if he wanted to to get rid of viruses and such. Ok, I'm sleepy so that's enough about my best friend for now. I know, blah blah, computer blah, I just think it's really interesting. Goodnight, Ciao :)